I’m looking for love, not an empty page full of stuff that means nothing but, “You’ve been played.

A Poem I Wrote Long Ago.

Like Love, it will never be perfect

Continuous, never entirely finished

It’s not deep enough, much too shallow

Always worried, it doesn’t meet their standards

Then you lock it away, keeping it from view

Only to gaze upon it years later

Struck, in awe, how could something you did

turn out to be so lyrically beautiful

But, it’s much too late to turn around

It lies there, tattered and damp

You’ve grown, new ideas have crept in

You were just a foolish kid

An adolescent who knew nothing of heartbreak

Who had not experienced the presence of death

A teen whose soul was not yet empty

Of laughter, affection, and love

Now, you look at these frazzled remains

That once held the key to your whole world

Trying to remember the girl behind the pages

But you collapse, knowing you lost her long ago

Pretending.

Sometimes, I wonder if I should disappear. 

End his problems.

Everyday it’s the same face haunting me.

Eyes pleading, ”Do you love me?”

Of course I do. But it’ll never be enough.

When bad days outnumber the good, 

that’s when it’s time. 

My flaws, my youth, me.

We don’t trust me. 

Passion’s not the problem, but it will be.

I love. I want this forever. 

But love isn’t selfish, and that’s where I’m stuck.

My selfishness is sucking me back here. 

Pretending.

But perfection isn’t real. 

And I know you’ll be happy one day.

Soon as I can tell myself,

Fuck me,

I’m not the one. 

She went with Ron and Harry because she has a really good heart. That’s not about brain. Ultimately, she had a bigger heart than she had a brain and that’s saying something for Hermione. But did she- Was she naturally drawn to battle? No, she wasn’t. She’s not a Bellatrix. She’s not a woman who actually wants to be hurting, fighting, killing. Not at all. - J.K. Rowling

She went with Ron and Harry because she has a really good heart. That’s not about brain. Ultimately, she had a bigger heart than she had a brain and that’s saying something for Hermione. But did she- Was she naturally drawn to battle? No, she wasn’t. She’s not a Bellatrix. She’s not a woman who actually wants to be hurting, fighting, killing. Not at all. - J.K. Rowling